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I had been to
Panama before, for jungle warfare training, when I was with the 2nd
Battalion (Rangers), 75th Infantry, from Ft. Lewis, Washington.
Now I was assigned there. I had given up a tour in Europe because
part of me knew that although I had gone through a few weeks of
jungle training, I was still an amateur. I needed far more than
three weeks. I wanted to be as good as the locals, and as long as I
wore a Ranger Tab on my shoulder, I had better be much better in the
bush than just the average troop.
Life in
Central America was explosive. One minute you’d be standing in the
chow line, and the next, you’d be running toward a gunship to fly
over the city and intervene in a destructive riot. Life was hard
and fast. Payment for a minor mistake was your life, as many
newbies found out the hard way. The jungle does strange things to a
soldier’s mind. I hopelessly witnessed more than one person lose
his sense of reality and go completely crazy. It was no coincidence
we dubbed Panama, The Green Hell.
Even off duty
time, running the bars, was potentially dangerous. Getting mugged,
or mistakenly shot by the policia was not at all uncommon.
And if you weren’t shot, you were arrested for no reason, at least
once. After my first experience, I kept a spare twenty in my shoe.
Coiba, an island prison surrounded by 2,000 sharks per square mile,
was no place for a Gringo, believe me.
We used to
sing a little song that went something like:
"Panama was once my home. From that place I had to roam. Lovin’
women and drinkin’ rum, never too far from my gun. Up and down the
Madingo-in, we sure killed a lot of men. Would have killed so many
more. Then they stopped our little war.”
By the time
July, 1979 rolled around, I had proven myself as a small unit leader
during numerous patrols. The situation in Managua was critical. We
all knew something violent was going to happen. In Panama you could
always find a traveler that had just passed through Nicaragua, El
Salvador, or Honduras. They were great for information. And the
death of an American journalist at a road block, filmed and shown on
TV all around the world didn’t help matters.
With our first
alert, we prepared for an airborne assault into Managua. All
leaders received the warning order. That night and part of the next
day, we prepared for the mission. The following night we rested.
Waiting. Time was moving so slow. All of us were on edge,
anxiously waiting for the word to go. None of us could sleep. Late
the next afternoon, we assembled in the dayroom and were told the
situation had eased, but, we were still on standby alert. Business
would continue as usual.
Friday, the
company picked up its monthly guard duty obligation. I was named as
commander-of relief of a remote outpost described as Empire Range.
I was in charge of a guard station located on a bluff overlooking
the Canal that was the CG’s TOC during emergencies, another on a
hilltop used as a radio relay site, and yet another near the
buildings of Empire Range.
That evening
went without incident. Saturday morning at 0800 hours, the driver
of the quarter ton returned with morning chow; the infamous
scrambled eggs, soggy bacon, and rubber pancakes with no syrup. I
sat down by the radio and drank some black coffee. Abruptly, the
radio squawked. It was the guard at the relay site.
“Empire Range,
Empire Range, this is Cerro Gordo. Over!”
“Cerro Gordo,
this is Empire Range,” I replied.
“I just
received a message from the Charlie Alfa. Return to there as soon
as possible. Over.”
“Just me, or
all of us? Over.”
“Just you, and
hurry. Over.”
“Tell Charlie
Alpha I will comply. Out.” I sat the handset down.
“Driver.”
“Yes
sergeant.”“Start the Jeep.” I walked over to another NCO, sound
asleep in his cot, and pushed his shoulder.
“Hey sarge, I’m out of here. You’re in charge.”
“What's going on?” he asked suspiciously.
“I don’t know yet. Take care of the men. See ya when I get back.”
I grabbed my M-16 and climbed into the vehicle.
“Back to the company, driver, and don’t worry about the speed
limit. I’ll take full responsibility. This is an emergency.”
A route that
normally took at least thirty minutes was traveled in fifteen.
Along the way, I thought about the radio call. There was only one
thing that could have brought me back to the company area.
Nicaragua. When I finally reached the barracks, an NCO approached
me at the main entrance.
“Get your
gear, and report to the day room,” he said breathlessly.
A 2 1/2 ton
truck was parked out front. Troopers were off-loading live, ball
ammunition and explosives. I sprinted up to my room two steps at a
time and snatched my packed rucksack, face shield, and flak vest,
and then returned to the dayroom.
“Where’s the
ammo?” I asked another sergeant, pointing at an empty crate.
“There’s none
left. Get another box off the truck.” The sergeant turned toward a
specialist fourth class.
“You, hurry up
and get these grenades snapped in,” he barked.
I took a step
toward the door, but I didn’t make it.
“GRENADE,” the
NCO behind me screamed.
I dived
through the door to my right, into the TV room, and landed on the
floor. I had my hands over my ears, and my mouth stretched open. I
counted silently, anticipating the explosion. One thousand one …
one thousand five, one thousand six. Nothing happened. I
pushed myself up and. peered through the doorway. Men and equipment
were scattered everywhere. Open boxes of 7.62-mm M-60 machine gun
ammo, LAW’s (light anti-tank weapon), fragmentation grenades, and CS
(tear gas) grenades were thrown about. Two soldiers, frozen stiff
with fear, were still standing in place.
“Grenade!
Grenade! Grenade!” someone yelled hysterically.
This time I
dived through a window and landed on a bench outside. I counted to
myself, and again, no explosion.
I didn’t know
it then but I found out later, en-route to Nicaragua, the events
that happened in the dayroom. The specialist who was told to snap
his grenades to his ammo pouches, cracked under the pressure of a
live combat mission. He pulled the pin to a grenade and purposely
dropped it. One thing he thankfully forgot to do was to remove the
tiny, wire safety clip from around the spoon of the deadly
explosive. A sergeant from the second platoon, who later died from
a gunshot wound on a beach in Panama, was the first one to secure
the frag. The acting First Sergeant, the same ranger who led the
group to Guyana, had an M-14 locked, loaded, and aimed at the SP4.
He hustled him away with the CO (Captain Kenneally, years later
killed in a helicopter crash as a Colonel in the Ranger Regiment) to
the orderly room. We learned that the SP4 underwent psychiatric
treatment and was sent to the states.
I still didn’t
have any ammo and time was running out. I jumped up into the
truck. The only crates left were training blanks, loaded by
mistake, except one, and that was tracers. I didn’t want the
tracers. They heated up a rifle too fast and caused it to
malfunction. But, I had no choice, unless I went to Managua
empty-handed.
Nineteen of
us, all enlisted men, were hand-picked for the mission. One field
grade officer, a major, and an airborne ranger, was our leader. I
observed some of the group roaming about, trying to find someone who
wasn’t going on the mission, to trade them their weapon, or
magazines. For some reason, this always happened. The men had a
false belief that in time of war, they would be issued brand new
equipment, and therefore, didn’t take care of what they had.
At short
notice, the word was passed—choppers, five minutes out. Without
delay, we moved to the cleared landing zone behind us. I could hear
the huey engines as soon as I stepped out the door. The
helicopters, four of them, landed in a staggered formation. The
crew chiefs exited, and put water wings on us. That meant we’d be
flying over water. The new CG, General Leuer former 1st
Ranger Battalion Commander, showed up at the LZ in his civvies. He
made a beeline to our chopper, and gave us a thumb’s up sign as we
began to load. He tried to say something but I couldn’t’ hear over
the roar the huey rotors.
I was given a
headset to hear the communications between choppers. A short time
later, we were airborne, flying in formation toward the Atlantic
side, and Ft. Sherman, sixty kilometers away.
On the ground
at Ft. Sherman we moved into an empty barracks away from the unit
that was going through JOTC. A few soldiers eyeballed us and we
could hear them commenting on all of our gear. They could tell
something was up. Once we settled into the barracks and posted
guards, the major gave us a situation report. We were going to fly
out to a Navy ship several kilometers up the coast. The helicopters
would be guided by a C-130. We were forbidden to mingle with or say
anything to anyone.
We locked up
our equipment. Every bullet was removed from the magazines,
counted, and redistributed. This way, I was able to spread out my
tracer rounds to the other men. The light faded at six, and
torrential rains came. It was eerily quiet in the large room where
we were sprawled out. Each one of us was alone in
thought—wondering. Wondering what was going on in Managua, wondering
if tomorrow would bring death, and especially, wondering why one of
our own, who was an outstanding trooper, suddenly cracked and tried
to kill us all. The tension was so strong you could see it. I
thought for sure someone else was going to break.
We had no idea
that US news reports actually reported us in downtown Managua
fighting Sandinistas. It was a restless night, tossing and
turning. I wished we had just gone in. Waiting gave me too much
time to think. The next morning, we flew out to the U.S.S. Saipan.
Our mission to
evacuate the US Embassy had begun...
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